BAJITOBLOG
BajitoBlog is a collection of writings from within my personal life and my work to build a better underground society for all members of the community who do not necessarily fit in with mainstream standards, lifestyles, behavior, etc. I believe we can be our own person, a good and peaceful person without having to conform to mainstream society. In the words of Albert Einstein, my cerebral hero, 'Del you are on the right track' - don't ever let nobody get you down...'
About Me
- Name: DEL HENDRIXSON
- Location: Dallas, Texas, United States
Some people think i live a fascinating life although i strive to be as humble as i can. but i found that if i ever give it all up - many people would be let down and many people would give up their own personal struggle if they ever see me give up or quit. believe me i have wanted to quit my work a million times and secretly i did. i would say 'no more of this' i'm going to sneak away and start myself a new life like other people have in the real world. then i would get a letter from a kid i never even met or an inmate somewhere i didn't even know and they would tell me how wonderful it was that i was doing so much for others and because of my struggle they had turned their lives around. man i hated those letters i would say to myself MAN! I hate it! i have not gotten five minutes into my new free from the struggle life and yet if i ever did leave it - these two lives may not have ever felt some love in their lives. life is so good when you let go and let God. it took me so many years of fighting to let go and let God rule in my world. Now i just follow Him and my life is so simple i can actually say i enjoy it! :)
Friday, February 18, 2005
JOINING FORCES....CASA DEL HISPANO
I am too tired to continue - just knowing though that all is coming together is incredible!
BAJITO ONDA RWANDA AFRICA
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Del, if i am going to travel to The Gambia to hold meetings with Amidu I need an official certification document from you as global head of the foundation - stating that i am a member in good standing and that i am the leader or president of Bajito Onda Rwanda African Foundation - not much more is needed. This will cover me to work in this country for the initial beginning startup organizing work i have to do. Please also mention that the Foundation is international not only African.
Del, i would also like to ask that you produce a certificate for my right hand who i told you about last time. we always work together in everything. His name is MAZIMA GEORGES. For him just say he is an active member of the foundation,
Your son Alex
Tell MAZ, welcome to the family and a big hug from the USA! He is a welcome soldier in the struggle.
HOW DO WE SAY IN FRENCH - 'peace soldier' - or 'youth army' something like that so that we can make up shirts and i can send to you all to wear to represent Bajito Onda in french -
also: how do we go about having you guys to help us raise funding there in Rwanda? i have some ideas....but i need you to be very flexible in your thinking...
you need to remove your traditional african thinking and let me put some Western thinking into that head of yours ;)
Alex, you are becoming quite dear to me - the reason is you are communicating as if you were sitting here next to me and actually you are.
listen, and amidu will tell you - i have many ways we can all make money and help each other as well as to continue to recruit true entreprenurial soldiers in the struggle (fight) for equality for those of us under certain forms of oppression and hardship.
now listen,
you africans (AMIDU I AM WRIITNG TO YOU AS WELL SON) YOU MUST NOT LEAD THESE BOYS BACK INTO AFRICAN TRADITIONAL THINKING BUT YOU MUST LEAD THEM INTO MY FORM OF THINKING WHILST THEY (YOU ALL ARE STILL INSIDE AFRICA)
I AM ADDING THIS TO THE BLOG - BECAUSE IT IS NECESSARY I FEEL THAT WE SHARE WITH OTHERS.
i want you to sit down and tell me
ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS
WHAT INFLUENTIAL COMPANIES YOU KNOW WELL
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WHO DO YOU KNOW THAT WORKS AT THESE COMPANIES WHO CAN ORDER THINGS OF A GRAPHIC NATURE SUCH AS TRUCK LETTERING - OR DECALS WITH SLOGANS ON THEM?
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DO EITHER OF YOU HAVE A CAR? OR A FRIEND WITH A CAR OR TRUCK?
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WHAT SIZE SHIRTS DO YOU WEAR? (ARE YOU FATTIES OR SKINNIES? ;)
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DO YOU LIKE TO WEAR HATS? - WILL YOU WEAR A BAJITO ONDA CAP IF I SEND THEM TO YOU?
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WHAT I'M THINKING HERE IS THAT I NEED TO BEGIN TO ARM YOU WITH OUR PRODUCTS THAT YOU CAN REPRESENT THERE IN AFRICA TO OTHERS WHO WILL BEG YOU TO PRODUCE THE PRODUCTS FOR THEIR COMPANY - AND THEREFORE YOU WILL MAKE MONEY - WE WILL PRODUCE THE PRODUCTS AND SEND THEM TO YOU - AND YOU WILL SELL THEM AND SEND ME MONEY AND KEEP YOUR PORTION -
I CAN PRODUCE PRODUCTS HERE THAT I CAN SEND TO YOU THERE AND YOU CAN SELL TO YOUR CLIENTS THERE - BECAUSE PRODUCTS LIKE I CAN MAKE HERE DO NOT EXIST THERE - YET.
YOU CAN BE ON THE ENTREPRENURIAL FOREFRONT OF SUCH WESTERNIZED PROGRESS.
HOWEVER YOU MUST BE PREPARED TO DO SO. IT WILL NOT BE AN INSTANT MAKING OF OUR COMPANY BUT WE CAN DO IT IF YOU ARE CONTINUALLY ACTIVE AND PARTICIPATING AS YOU HAVE BEEN.
YOU ARE ACTUALLY BEING MORE ACTIVE THAN YOUR BROTHER - GATHECHA -
THEREFORE YOU MAY TAKE THE INIITIATIVE NOW AND THEN GATHECHA CAN COME IN WITH YOU LATER AND SUPPORT YOUR EFFORTS AS A LEADER IN INDUSTRY AND PROGRESS.
YOU MUST SUPPORT YOUR OTHER TEAM MEMBERS SUCH AS BABA - AND ONCE YOU HAVE 'IT' IN YOUR HEADS AND WE ARE WORKING IN COORDINATED EFFORTS WITH EACH OTHER THEY WILL THEN BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND THE METHODOLGIES AND THEREFORE JOIN US AS A STRONG AFRICAN TEAM.
AMIDU HAS GOTTEN SLEEPY I THINK ((((( :) ))))))) AND LET AFRICAN TRADITIONAL THINKING BEGIN TO SLOW HIM DOWN IN THE FINANCIAL RUNNING OF THE GAME OF LIFE.
AMIDU IS A WONDERFUL HUMANITARIAN WHO DOES A GREAT JOB OF MAKING MIRACLES OUT OF THIN AIR. HOWEVER HE NEEDS $$$ THAT CAN EASILY BE SUPPLIED BY ALL OF US WORKING TOGETHER.
YOU CAN BE THE ONES ALEX AND NEW SON MAZ - THAT PROVIDE THE STARTUP FUNDING FOR THOSE OTHER GROUPS - AND AS WELL YOU CAN BECOME THE 'EDUCATIONAL TRAINING FORCE' IF YOU CAN LEARN MY METHODS VIA THE INTERNET. I WILL DO WHAT I CAN TO WORK WITH YOU AND PUT THAT KNOWLEDGE INTO YOUR BRAINS...
YOU WILL HAVE TO THINK THOUGH - BECOME IMAGINATIVE - EXPAND YOUR THINKING PAST THE LIMITS OF YOUR AFRICAN BRAIN - FORGET ALL LIMITATIONS AND OBSTACLES... THEY DO NOT EXIST IN MY WORLD - NOW BECOMING YOUR WORLD.
YOU HAVE MANY ADVANTAGES - OVER AMERICANS - YOU / WELL WE - CAN NOW WORK IN MANY LANGUAGES - AND YOU CAN CROSS MANY CULTURAL LINES OF BUSINESS MAKING - I AM ASSUMING YOU LIKE TO MAKE MONEY - AS WELL AS HELP PEOPLE LIKE MAZ.
.....ANSWER ME THIS.....ARE YOU PREPARED TO BE LEADERS AT THE HEAD OF OUR KNOWLEDGE REVOLUTION?
IF YOU ARE ANSWER ME THIS...........
DO YOU HAVE ACCESS TO A
....DIGITAL CAMERA? (VERY IMPORTANT) - CAN YOU GET ONE - OR USE ONE?
....REGULAR CAMERA WITH PHOTO PROCESSING (NOT ADVISEABLE - TOO COSTLY - TOO SLOW)
....SCANNER IN WHICH TO SCAN THINGS AND EMAIL IMAGES TO ME?
....WHERE DO YOU WRITE TO ME FROM? (SCHOOL, HOME, INTERNET CAFE, ETC)
....WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS DO? ARE THEY PROFESSIONALS - WHERE DO THEY WORK?
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THAT IS ALL FOR NOW...... TAKE THESE QUESTIONS ONE BY ONE AND HAVE MAZ ANSWER THEM ALSO - INDIVIDUALLY OF YOURSELF.
YOU ARE TWO PEOPLE ALTHOUGH YOU AFRICANS SEEM ALWAYS TO WORK WITH A 'TWIN' SUCH AS AMIDU HAS JOSEPH AS HIS RIGHT HAND MAN - YOU ARE TWO PEOPLE - GIVING US DOUBLE SUPPORT - STRONGER EFFORT - BUT YOU WILL HAVE INDIVIDUAL ANSWERS....
GO THROUGH THIS AND GIVE ME YOUR ANSWERS - AND MAZ YOU DO THE SAME...
I SEND YOU MY LOVE AND STRENGTH - STAY TRUE AND LETS BUILD A LEADERSHIP TEAM - THAT YOU CAN THEN BRING IN OTHERS UNDER YOU AND THEY WILL MULTIPLY YOUR EFFORTS.
ALWAYS,
MUM
Monday, February 14, 2005
BO BOTH SIDES PRISON NEWSLETTER - FEB 2005
Dearest Guys – I am writing after what seems to be an eternity. I apologize for not having answered some of you back in your personal requests / demands for me to personally write each and every one of you! Red you know who you are .
I want to thank you guys for your wonderful participation in the Prison Art Gallery. Some of you have been hitting home runs financially if you know what I mean. I know one of my brothers has been sent around $250 or so for a period of about sixty days. Some of you new guys are coming on with us and sending us incredible work, especially your leather work.
I want to have a heart to heart with you – so go get a cup of java and sit down for a minute and kick it with me. You all have been filling me in on your lives, whats going on etc. I need to do the same but I cannot do it individually I hope you understand… and no it does not mean that I am selling out on you.
I need to let you know how much you all mean to me and to this foundation. Afterall it is for you – that is why I do not keep one cent of the money I get when I sell your items. I send it all to you minus the 50 cents or whatever for a postal money order.
Let me get a few things clear…. MS. HALLMAN OF THE PAROLE OFFICE IS NOT HOOKED UP TO THE PAROLE BOARD. SHE DOESN’T HAVE A THING TO DO WITH IT. When I mentioned that I work with her sometimes I meant that she refers me some parolees to do community service with BO and to learn printing skills in the meantime. DO NOT SEND ME TO GIVE TO HER ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR CASES. SHE WILL THROW IT AT ME IF I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO GO DOWN THERE AND STAND IN FRONT OF HER AND ASK HER TO LOOK AT IT. She does not know you unless she knows you already and if you are in prison that is not what she wants to hear so she will only get frustrated at me. I already suffered this thing with my now good buddy Louis S. and after me and him butted heads (that boy has got one hard head – not to mention mine as well so we might as well just forget about it and get along) – Louis really got under my skin with all that crap about me being a professional art gallery – now LISTEN TO THIS… I AM NOT ANYTHING NEAR A PROFESSIONAL ART GALLERY. I AM AN EX CONVICT AND I CARE ABOUT YOU SO THEREFORE I’M JUST TRYING TO SHOW THE FREEWORLD WHAT WE ARE MADE OUT OF – I’M NOT OUT HERE WITH SOME SNOOTY FOLKS WALKING AROUND SIPPING WINE AND EATING CHEESE. I made a tattoo studio where all kinds of folks are getting tattoos and while they are there – I have hung your art and collections on the metal urban walls and sometimes they are buying it. When I sell something we run to the PO and we fire off a MO straight to your hands. If you ain’t getting money its cause we’re NOT selling your crafts. Its not cause I’m not trying or cause I don’t want to or cause I don’t think your art is great but its just because enough people have not heard about the gallery yet to begin to collect and support it. Now some of you are sending in a lot of pieces. Frankly I have nothing against that. I love your work and as long as it is thoughtful, artistic craft work (not cookie cutter mickey mouse and tweety bird patterns) then I am honored to receive it. My boy Alberto Perez sent in three ladies clutch purses and bam! They sold in five seconds… plus I need you to hear me on this one… I THINK THAT IF WE CAN GET SOME BEAUTIFUL BIBLE COVERS AND THIN TALL WALLETS NOT REAL THIK ONES – with the Virgin of Guadalupe on them and ALSO WE NEED SOMETHING BLACK ON THEM IF YOU WANT TO MAKE MONEY. SOME OF YOU MESKINS MAY NOT WANNA DO BLACK CRAFTS BUT IF YOU WANNA MAKE MONEY THE BLACKS OUT HERE AIN’T INTO THE VIRGIN – IF YOU GET MY DRIFT. They are requesting some black type theme art – like MLK – family scenes, etc. I am not creative you are - but I do hear what they are telling me – now Big Red bless his little pointed head sent me the most beautiful Desk Plaque for my desk – its so big I can hardly see over it but its on my desk! Red you just gotta get in there somehow… While I’m picking on Red I do want the brother to have some of my deepest respect and love for his earnest and always fired up efforts to get the piddlers behind this gallery. Me and Red have been kicking it for a long time – and this I think is a joint effort between us. Red you done good my brother. I have been talking to the sister now my good friend with Prison Fellowship Kathy Maltz and maybe I’m going to go down to Coffield and do one of my in prison prison scared straight talks …… I’m just kidding – lighten up already will you guys???? Sheesh I know that already ruffled some of your hair on the back of your neck… yeah right, eh?
I have been asked back at the Roach Unit up at Childress, TX sometime here in the near future. I love to get into prison every chance I can and let our guys know how much you mean to me. I used to be there myself and therefore I want you to know that I do know how it feels and I will never sell out on you or turn my back or walk away from you. Your light is shining brighter out here than ever before. Please I ask you to have patience with me and not to jump to conclusions as sometimes ‘convict thinking’ will cause us to do. That deep sinking insecure feeling when we feel like someone has left us for good or cheated us or stolen from us when we are down. I know that feeling my brothers… I know it all too well. No matter if I am out here – it hits me in the face all too often and each time it hurts like the last time. We have all been burnt – but know in your heart that I will never burn you – we may not always get along… but I am trying the most I can do out here with not much support. If you are in Cali or Texas – know how much this organization is growing because of your love and support.
The kids out here want me to tell you hello and thanks for them – because you are giving of yourselves to let others know you do care about these kids and the ones I’m out here trying to keep from heading into the gates. Today some juniors at Molina HS in Oak Cliff brought over some Valentines Balloons to Bajito Onda for all we do for kids. It made me so proud and happy that we are truly making a difference in kids lives!
Well anyways, so I have another thing I want to ask you guys – can you please send me a list of all the crafts you know of so I can try them out out here. I do not know what you have access to or what you can get to make things out of. Now I’ve got everything from paint can birdhouses from my buddy Esteban – and No I am not going to take those into the parole office either – they will once again kill me. Those women are so particular on what they allow into their offices – if it isn’t about their college sorority and all their children’s and family’s pictures, it ain’t gonna be from me either. Man I already know those women down there. It took me about two years homies to even get through their tough walls enough to just get them to talk to me like I’m FIRST) NOT A CONVICT SECOND) NOT ON PAROLE THIRD) NOT IN PRISON FOURTH) NOT AN IDIOT FIFTH) NOT ATTACKING THEM VERBALLY AND SO ON AND ON. YOU GET MY DRIFT – turn around to that friendly CO OR SGT down the hall and think of striking up a friendly conversation with them… and that is what you are asking me to deal with out here.
Now I want to fill you guys in we now have a new office we are trying to move into – pray for us that it happens. It will be 4,000 square feet for $1,200 a mo. Where we are now is in three different offices and its killing me paying so much and not having any help.
Now I met this woman from Houston, and she has signed on to become our full time grant writer, funding director and disbursement officer. The woman has studied grant writing and is actively working with us to push us over the top this year. I cannot do what she is doing for us – I do not have time or brains to do it. So if any of you want to write her and say thank you for helping us – I’m sure she will be touched. Please leave the ‘lonely prisoner looking for a sexy single hottie penpal’ out of it cause she’s married with two little ones – but I would like you to write a sincere and of course respectful note to her – her name is ‘D’ – and no its not me just wanting an ego stroke!
I was on tv a while back on Fox 4 news and a homie from Chi saw me and he has written two books about his life in the gang lifestyle. He contacted me and is now writing my life story as Bajito Onda - in book form. His publisher in chi already is interested in publishing it so I’m happy we are getting that going also. This is gonna be our year homies!
Say Esteban I wanna tell you I really enjoy you sending me the Echo paper – its refreshing to hear your news too – not just always mine.
Say Andrew and Mita Mita – what’s going on up your way?
Rev Ramon Salcido in San Quentin, I send my love out your way and I pray the doors of Q will open for me this year – it is one of my goals this year is to make it out your way…. Another scared straight talk eh? ;) just kidding homie…. Say thanks for the great artwork – please see if you can send some more from some other homies also and put something in them if you can with Bajito Onda – San Quentin - I think we can get more press and more public interest with it like that.
Any of you doing some art with a big Bajito Onda into it at the top of it in ink will most likely end up with it on a shirt for our clothing line. I’m trying to get some art like Rollin Hard if you know what it looks like… cars, women, guys, jesus, brick walls, whatever, but keep it clean and cool and we should be fine…. Esp if you can design it with a black background and white ink or lettering – then I can print it firme on black shirts.
Till later…..
Now even though I do not write you all the time back and forth does not mean I do not love each and every one of you. Bear? How you doing? Sorry I too have not had a chance to write you. But I’m out here trying to get a real penpal thing going for you all – but its gonna take like a mini department to do it. Also I have met finally with Pastor Rose of Rose Ministries – last week she came over twice. I think she was afraid to come meet me but we had a nice lunch and visit and she hung around with us for most of a day. I think she has been sick and not over again. She is welcome to come and hang out – but with all she is trying to do with her ministry I doubt she can devote much to helping BO.
Now I got you handled Adan in regards to your arte. Pastor Rose is supposed to bring it over tomorrow to me…. Same day I try to mail this out. For those of you who got a Valentine’s Card – I hope you enjoyed it – for those of you who didn’t please forgive me – I’m trying to perfect a way to be more efficient. Now let me once more tell you Adan, that even when I have all your art here – I cannot do the list upon list thing – or all you needed from Rose. So let me know and I will simply box up your things until I hear from you what you want me to do with them knowing that I am too busy to do a whole lot of cataloging and all that that should go with being a real gallery owner. Since I am not – I need some sort of legal exemption from all those requirements. Its like this… I mark your stuff and put the price on it – I do not want a penney other than the MO cost. Do not insist… it is more problem than I can deal with to start deducting percentages out of each sale – If I like your art that much and if I have the time and money I will simply print some shirts of it and send your family a dozen of them – but other than that I am so busy I can barely think straight.
About the Houston thing…. I am considering seriously either opening a branch office there since D is already stepping up to the plate and forming the Houston official chapter. Or else I’m even considering if it works out – moving there lock stock and barrel. Still not sure about that one but its sure a possibility at this time in my life and struggle.
Now guys, take care,
I’m sleepy and tired and its late, but I did want you to know I was thinking about you and I care about you – so please return the favor… your prayers are always welcome!
Hugs to each of you!
Del
Saturday, February 12, 2005
BAJITO ONDA HOUSTON
Thursday, February 10, 2005
BAJITO ONDA HONDURAS - PRESIDENT TEDDY
It was about that time that Antonio Melin, my first official "Bajito Onda Son of Mexico" and the President of Bajito Onda Mexico and Latin Americas - (A title I gave him a few years back and he has slowly grown into).... well Antonio came up to me and (as he has always done... he took me by the arm and said - there is a special table i want you to meet - I said 'wow! really?' I thought surely it was President Fox or someone higher than I was already schmoozing with. He and i speak only Spanish to each other since Antonio is sort of a wannabe English speaker..... He took me over to a table and he proudly presented me to the table of MARASALVATRUCHAS - Ahhh, Salvadoran gang members... As we approached their table they were sitting there in formal looking attire throwing gang signs. Hmmm, i thought, Antonio loves these guys because these are 'our guys' who we love to see turn their lives around and help others. Me being white, they thought.... What tha????? But when my Spanish came out and i shook hands with them street style their eyes opened up so bright and smiles covered all our faces and they said.... 'oh yea!!!' That was when Teddy from Honduras became my soldier for the whole event. I could not get him away from me no matter how hard i tried. He wanted to serve me and Bajito Onda as if it were a lifesaving gang mindset. He had played right into it. Teddy and i spent much time together every time we saw each other. I went to their presentation at the Conference - 'From the inside of the Marasalvatruchas' - understanding the needs of true gangmembers and how to reach us. Teddy and Ernesto from El Salvador (another true love) both had been immigrants from their countries, both were recruited innocently into the vicious LA gang life of their families before them, both were shot many times and both spent time in the courts and in prison until finally both were deported to their countries. Ernesto became the Salvadoran branch of www.homiesunidos.org based in LA and strung to ES. A great guy older than Teddy and walking with crutches due to his rough gang life in LA. Well Teddy and Ernesto really bonded. Teddy still writes as i have placed his letter below. It is in Spanish.... central American spanish - a bit different from Mexican but if you use www.bablefish.com to translate it just copy and paste it into Bablefish and it translates it pretty good. you will see that Teddy is becoming a point of light in the darkness of Honduras where he is trying to help prisoners and gangmembers to find employment, get real help in a court system that IMPRISONS PERSONS JUST BECAUSE THEY HAVE TATTOOS - NOT BECAUSE THEY COMMIT A CRIME - i plan someday to go to Honduras and walk side by side with Teddy in his lucha / struggle to help others like himself. God Bless You Teddy - Stay Strong!
-----------------here is his letter - he's quite funny and forces me to pay him special attention as you can see here! And of course i do because he is such a special son to me - to count now - i have probably over a thousand sons around the world.... and growing!
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ok Del asi si megusta que te espreces no solo un pinche saludo amiga - :)
Hola corazon saves estoy muy alegre por que te allas dedicado un poco de tu tiempo para contestar mis caprichos de que tu me escribas mas de un saludo saves te boy amadar fotos de todo lo que estado asiendo en Honduras bueno luego te escribo on poco mas por que mañana es un buen dia iremos a la capital de Honduras que se llama tegusigalpa a defender unos homis
que los capuraron la policia por un pinche articulo de la ley penal anti maras que acreado es este gobierno y tenmos todas las ventajas y savemos que no los madaran a prision por que los fiscales conocen nuestro trabajo y me siento muy alegre cuando el proseso legal de esta ley les ganamos estos casos luego te cuento lo que paso bueno mira mi celular es 373-09-72 y el de la
oficina es 550-20-69 horas de oficina de 9;00am,a 5;00pm
ok
saludes a toda la raza de bajito onda
(GREET ALL THE FOLKS OF BAJITO ONDA!)
By him giving me his phone number - that means now i have to call the boy - who i will do but also puts a drain on me because international calls can be very expensive. More why we need donations to help us.
here is my reply back to him.... sorry i don't have time to translate for you....
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Saludos Mi querido Teddy,
Que fantastico que eres haciendo gran differencia en las vidas de tus homitos alli - favor de dales un gran abrazo departe mia - diles los cabrones que algun dia mi van aver alli en tu mero turf de los maras. yo mero. :)
pues tambien cuentame que le paso siempre a Ernesto, mi otro querido homie de los meros homiesunidos.org ????? dile el que mi escribas, eh?
pos entonces te voy a hablar por un rato nada mas para escucharte en vivo y en color! tan guapo que eres!
bueno soldado frente y fuerte,
te mando mi carino, mi respectos, y todo mi apoyo mijo por la lucha mas dificil que ningun pandilla - la lucha por los rechazados, oprimidos y los prisioneros....
a mis prisioneros diles que les mando un saludo muy especial y que nunca DIGO NUNCA!!!! PARES DE MARCHAR POR LA PAZ Y LA UNIDAD DE NUESTRA GENTE!
Quiero un retrato donde tienes mi playera amarillio puesto!
hasta despues mijo...
del
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
BAJITO ONDA AFRICA FOUNDATION
WOODY I MISS YOU
My new friend is known to me only by his pseudonym Reymundo Sanchez - at www.nogangs.com - i'm reading his first book right now and i'm trying to 'live his life with him' to walk his streets and run his life with him and his friends if thats what you call them. He made the best of a screwed up life. But its haunting me. I wish i could have been there for him, or here for him. so he never lived the life he has led. that is what i'm doing for all i can get ahold of while there is still hope in their young lives. i see what happens to the ones who fall through the cracks of society and fall onto the streets of hell and devastation. society is sweeping up the streets and throwing them into prison cells to hide them away - when really they are boys and girls fighting for their lives in the battlefields of modern America. it is nobody's fault - we have to put our guilt behind us and the stop the blaming. we just have to SAVE MORE CHILDREN NOW! i began to see that my life after woody has had a purpose that is much higher than the one me and him had for ourselves... we were street driven, money driven, power driven, adventure driven and destruction driven through violence, thieving and drugs as well as taking advantage of persons that woody used to use up like kleenexes... women. what i heard women did for him for only a pack of cigarrettes or a ride across town. but that was woody. and i always loved him as my dearest brother and confidant. times have changed now though and reymundo sanchez is now my friend, and i'm reading this book about him and its haunting me. i'm seeing that my life after woody has been a heaven and a pure unadulterated hell of hells. i never dreamed i would have slogged on this long alone without my sidekick. its as if i have been in a socially induced stupor all these years and i'm not even sure if i have awakened yet or if i ever will. i see that in my path along the journey to the next world that i have walked a million miles and encountered the same amount of lives out here wandering around in the world. children, elderly, alcoholics, drug addicts, convicts and exconvicts, wife beaters, drug dealers, murderers, rapists, drive by shooters, armed robbers, gang leaders, gang followers, prison guards, cops, teachers who by the way i have since found out buy and sell drugs with the kids they teach - so do parole officers and prison guards of course - all folks who do not have to take drug tests and the school bus drivers who also provide a great distribution network for drugs... in dallas... as well as around the country. the whole world is in on it - but they just don't say anything... Me? Whose side am I on? i'm on the side of the kids - the gangs and the prisoners. Why? they have no voice in society, where they also have no place. I know i was there. i'm still there because i still care.
So in this dream i see myself reaching out to everyone i come in contact with - i reach out but some are not the good people.. they are the takers or the liars or the 'smiling do nothing fakes' that really hurt my soul. oh and the ones who when i reach out to them they look at me like i'm insane for caring about the ones who are so appreciative for me having touched their soul and led them into the light. we are doing it - slowly and one life at a time. i pray that wherever you are right now that you will turn to someone and begin reaching out to them and planting seeds of hope and love - you never know which ones will be the 'savers' and who will flourish because you were there and you care.
Monday, February 07, 2005
WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR WORLD TODAY?
Well that's all for tonite... Take care of yourself and thanks for stopping by. Leave your info so we can get you to take the questionnaire (its not personal) its about your life - even if you never met us before... you are important to our future works for kids and communities. God Bless, - Del
Saturday, February 05, 2005
YA KNOW....
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
BAJITO ONDA PRISON MINISTRY - LOUIS' PRISON PAINTING OF THE CHILD AND THE BLANKET
When this guy also was one of the prize winners... his art was very good. well i published a newsletter contratulating all of them on their efforts and accomplishments and he was one. man i got a letter back accusing me of everything under the sun along with telling me what a lousy gallery owner i am / was. now how was i supposed to know how to run a gallery if i'm just trying to do it to help other people? well the way this man chewed me out was pitiful. i was so hurt by it - if convicts only could see how hard us freeworlders formerly known as convicts out here. well he got me so good i took a copy of his letter accusing me of stealing his art - and i showed it to Ms. She Devil at the parole office. she made me wait about an hour and then about spit in my face telling me she could care less and so on. i gave her the copy and she threw it on the floor and walked right over it. that was it for me and him and i went back to my office and i deleted his name off all mailing labels and other places. i never have done that in all my years but this guy really got to me. my life went back to semi-normalcy and here comes another letter from him. it too was still ragging on me just in case i hadn't gotten it the first time. i ignored him. a week or so goes by and i get another letter from him. this one was different. i didn't even look at it - my assistant read it for me out of curiosity and she said, 'its from louis - and he's had a change of heart'. wow... okay he sucked me in... hmmm i thought it was a trick. i mean convicts are there... and i am here and we are writing all this stuff back and forth and we've never even met each other and we've somehow managed to have this really big fight... words are powerful and hurtful. i did let him know that i usually get nice and decent respectful letters so his was really a zinger. so as i read his begging for forgiveness letter i realized that we both had allowed this third party thing to come between our good start. he went on and on and of course i had to accept him back.... i had to go make a new mailing label for him - i am way too ADD to address envelopes and ever get them mailed by hand so i bought for my birthday last year this great Dymo label maker... works great for me. so i wrote him back this long (i do not have that much time but i took it) letter and we got back being friends again. he is a Godly man, but he admitted he slipped up and fell backward on that one. So last week i got this other letter from him... and the most incredible piece of art of a little girl holding a blanket... he wrote on the back of it that it was for my 'private collection' which i guess his is the first piece to go in it... it is in those prisma colors and is just incredible... he calls it the child and the blanket. it is a little girl so sweet looking and she's holding a blanket so pretty. he said that my work is like a security blanket for the children it reaches and i was / am honored by it so much i put it right on my desk. he now is signing up to become a permanent artist for our gallery. he is sending in more pieces of the caliber i cannot even describe.
here is the letter he wrote:
Sister Del,
Del, i think a lot of you, i like your forgiving spirit in light of my sharp tongue, that really meant something to me. This painting is my most prized possession, my very best! out of my private collection to be exact. my own mother could have asked for it and ... no dice. however she abandoned mewhen i needed her the most. i spoke to you like a common dog and you dug down deep and gave me love. so
Del i'm loving you also, you own a piece of my heart. this painting is yours. the second reason its yours to show that i am in this with you for keeps i am not giving lip service, my calling is helping our kids, drug addicts, prisoners & gang members and giving them hope, showing them the love Jesus commanded us to give. i hope you find a good place for it in your casa. this painting represents the kids tyou have loved over the years. you have been a security blanket to them (as depicted in the painting) and you have brought back sunshine through the storm also as depicted in the painting. this painting was made for you even before our paths crossed and now it is in the right hands. the painting is ready for framing.
Always, Louis
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
MY NEW RWANDAN SON - ALEX
amahoro means peace, this is a greeting in the kinyarwanda language.
hug for me all the team that you are working with there in the US, and receive greetings from my new member of bajitoonda called mazima georges who is also a student at national university of Rwanda and an active boy.
yah ,i plan for having training in gambia at the end of the month of march, i 'll have 2 weeks of days off (small holiday) so i want to profit it ,and go to achieve some knowledge about the foundation.
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Rwanda still have this need of bajitoonda because we have many prisoners who commited Genicide in 1994 and a large number of old released prisoners who are unemployed.
so bajito onda is very needed by me and my whole country. please forgive me for many mistakes of my english because i'm a french spoken person.
hope to read next
your son alex